forever

and we swore

with a pinky promise

that we’d be

best friends

forever.

then came

a move across town;

that’s how long

forever lasted.

 

and we swore

with tears and a hug and a grin

that we’d be

best friends

forever.

then came

a switch of schools;

that’s how long

forever lasted.

 

and we swore

with purest intentions

that we’d be

best friends

forever.

then came

that one boy;

that’s how long

forever lasted.

curve

what a

tragedy,

that you’ve made them

think it’s okay

that they notice

the curves

of her body

before they notice

the curve

of her smile.

senses

i dance with the dead;
they sing their songs in my head.
and i have keys to places
you’ll only see in your dreams.

they stare me down and
i turn my eyes to you.
but you look away
and dont give me a second glance.

their whispers fill the room
and the fake laughter echoes in my ear.
i wait to hear anything from you,
but not even a breath escapes in my direction.

i can taste their lies –
they are bitter in my mouth.
your words would be sweet;
won’t you fill me up with them?

they can smell my fear
from a mile away.
all you would smell is my lilac perfume.
if only you would draw me close again.

they brush their shoulders against me
as if they dont even know im there.
but one touch from you
brings me to my senses.

we could dance with the dead,
and their songs could replay in our heads.
couldnt we share keys to our most secret places,
and it all be more than a dream?

louder

they say that actions

speak louder than words.

 

but what about when

you do nothing

and you say nothing at all?

 

you said it would improve,

get better.

you would turn over a new leaf.

 

and then when you didnt,

you grew quiet.

retreated, and refused to say a thing.

 

your absence of change,

it is

devastating.

 

and your silence,

it is

deafening.